I've been neglecting my best friend. I'm just going to come right out and say it. And I really feel bad. I feel bad, because I know exactly how it feels. Your best friend gets a boyfriend and then suddenly she falls off the face of the Earth. I never wanted to become that girl, but yet, somehow I have. I've become the girl that I used to complain about when I was single. I've become the girl that can never be without him. And I SO do not want to be that girl. Admitting you have a problem is the first step right? I want D to be an extra bonus, wonderful addition to my life, not be my life. I LOVE spending time with D but I miss my girls. They have been my support for a long time and I wouldn't be where I am today without them. Especially my bestie. I love her! We can scream at each other on the phone and still work things out in the end. That's just the way we are.
*On a side note, I explained to D that I had been neglecting bestie (not his fault at all, its all me) and I am going to start making more time for her... and he completely understood. As well he should have, but I'm still just amazed of how good of a person he is. Just another reason why I love him so much.*
Lets see... hmmm... what else... oh yeah... one little thing...
I GOT A JOB!!!!!
You are looking at the new Social Network Marketing Specialist for a local apartment relocation service here in SA. I will be doing their social media as well as their public relations. I am SO excited about this job. It's a brand new, exciting up-in-coming field. Here is a video that shows some stats about how social media is a new revolution not just a fad.
I will be promoting the business through different social media channels and outlets. I finally get the pay I deserve, BENEFITS, and out of all get the satisfaction that I got my degree for a reason. All the time and money in school really did pay off.
Lots of things changing in my life... but I believe it's for the better.
*BTW... not sure why the last part is in huge font. I tried to change it but I couldn't get it back to normal. Oh well... it is BIG news :-)
Monday, September 21, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Talkin Smack
So lately one of my favorite bloggers, Chelsea Talks Smack, seems to have been writing just for me. These last couple of posts have been EXCELLENTLY written.
Here is one about connecting with people in the "real" life not just the 3D life.
And here is another about being afraid to fall in love.
Finally here is another about doing what you love to do even if it doesn't make any sense to anyone else but yourself.
If you don't already read her blog, then you NEED to subscribe ASAP! This girl is one cool chick who oddly enough seems to speak directly to me. Thanks Chelsea for making me feel not quite so alone.
Here is one about connecting with people in the "real" life not just the 3D life.
And here is another about being afraid to fall in love.
Finally here is another about doing what you love to do even if it doesn't make any sense to anyone else but yourself.
If you don't already read her blog, then you NEED to subscribe ASAP! This girl is one cool chick who oddly enough seems to speak directly to me. Thanks Chelsea for making me feel not quite so alone.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Mature Relationship
Well hello blogosphere! I know one of the unspoken rules of writing a blog is that you aren't suppose to apologize for not writing for a while, but I honestly do apologize. It's not like I haven't sat down and tried to write something several times... I have.
And I'm not going to lie, I have been spending a lot time with the new bf... D... but that's not the whole reason why I haven't written in a while. I just wanted to write something that made some kind of sense.
As I look back over my list of criteria D matches up almost perfectly. Although there are some things that don't match I have found that it doesnt really matter. So what if his favorite band isn't The Beatles, I like teaching him all that I know about them, its fun! He's kind, generous, compasionate, caring, and loving. He makes me laugh... laugh so hard that my sides hurt!
But sometimes I think, "Am I capable of having a mature relationship?" I hope that I am. I have had a lot of past experiences that I have learned from, I have read The Rules and "The Bitch Book" AKA "The Bible" AKA "Why Men Love Bitches", I have talked enlessly about men with my girlfriends, and I have seen every episode of Sex in the City ever made. But is this enough? Is anyone ever ready for a mature relationship?
And what consists of a mature relationship anyway? Right now I'm just going to take it day by day. Live in the moment. I'm going to enjoy his compaionship. I'm going to enjoy the side- splitting laughter, the long kisses goodnight, holding his hand, going out to dinner, watching movies together, taking his dog to park, and getting to know his family better. It's been a long time since I have been in a relationship. But it was definitely worth the wait. :-)
And I'm not going to lie, I have been spending a lot time with the new bf... D... but that's not the whole reason why I haven't written in a while. I just wanted to write something that made some kind of sense.
As I look back over my list of criteria D matches up almost perfectly. Although there are some things that don't match I have found that it doesnt really matter. So what if his favorite band isn't The Beatles, I like teaching him all that I know about them, its fun! He's kind, generous, compasionate, caring, and loving. He makes me laugh... laugh so hard that my sides hurt!
But sometimes I think, "Am I capable of having a mature relationship?" I hope that I am. I have had a lot of past experiences that I have learned from, I have read The Rules and "The Bitch Book" AKA "The Bible" AKA "Why Men Love Bitches", I have talked enlessly about men with my girlfriends, and I have seen every episode of Sex in the City ever made. But is this enough? Is anyone ever ready for a mature relationship?
And what consists of a mature relationship anyway? Right now I'm just going to take it day by day. Live in the moment. I'm going to enjoy his compaionship. I'm going to enjoy the side- splitting laughter, the long kisses goodnight, holding his hand, going out to dinner, watching movies together, taking his dog to park, and getting to know his family better. It's been a long time since I have been in a relationship. But it was definitely worth the wait. :-)
Sunday, August 16, 2009
The curse has lifted!
Writers block has cursed my fingers once again. Or perhaps I have been so wrapped up in my changing thoughts and feelings that it has been nearly impossible for me to write something half way coherent. I guess being in limbo can do that to you sometimes.
For a while I have been wanting to get the heck out of dodge. For a lot of reasons, but most importantly because I needed to save money and start paying back my debts. The job search has been frugal and not at all successful. I am still uncertain as to exactly why I haven't been able to find something. I assume it's the economy, but it also might be me. Maybe, although I thought I was, perhaps I really wasn't trying as hard as I should have. College grads have it especially hard finding a job. They have little to no experience because they have spent so much time completing their degree. But yet they have spent so much money completing their degree they need to find a job that can be beneficial financially to them. It's almost a Catch- 22. As for me, I feel like I have a ton of experience in a lot of random stuff. My degree was in communications so I could really do anything. It's just sometimes hard to express in one lousy cover letter or resume. (Although, I think my resume is awesome! But apparently that is just me that thinks that.) So, my new goal is to bug the sh*t out of all the businesses that I apply to. You know about the proverbial squeaky wheel... well that's going to be me! I hate my current job more than EVER right now so that's just a little extra fuel for the fire. I really do think that I would be an excellent addition to any company.
Besides the foreboding nightmare that is my job search I am very happy to say that I LOVE my work that I have been doing for Parker Creek. I would be super sad and depressed if these guys weren't in my life. We completed not one, but TWO shorts for a competition a couple of weeks ago. It was a challenge that we were to remake a movie that spanned no more than ten minutes. The first one was a remake of Office Space and Evil Dead 2. By the way... that's my voice in the background that you hear. Also, this video already has over 300 views!
And the second took home 2nd place! This was by far the most fun I had on a movie set.
For a while I have been wanting to get the heck out of dodge. For a lot of reasons, but most importantly because I needed to save money and start paying back my debts. The job search has been frugal and not at all successful. I am still uncertain as to exactly why I haven't been able to find something. I assume it's the economy, but it also might be me. Maybe, although I thought I was, perhaps I really wasn't trying as hard as I should have. College grads have it especially hard finding a job. They have little to no experience because they have spent so much time completing their degree. But yet they have spent so much money completing their degree they need to find a job that can be beneficial financially to them. It's almost a Catch- 22. As for me, I feel like I have a ton of experience in a lot of random stuff. My degree was in communications so I could really do anything. It's just sometimes hard to express in one lousy cover letter or resume. (Although, I think my resume is awesome! But apparently that is just me that thinks that.) So, my new goal is to bug the sh*t out of all the businesses that I apply to. You know about the proverbial squeaky wheel... well that's going to be me! I hate my current job more than EVER right now so that's just a little extra fuel for the fire. I really do think that I would be an excellent addition to any company.
Besides the foreboding nightmare that is my job search I am very happy to say that I LOVE my work that I have been doing for Parker Creek. I would be super sad and depressed if these guys weren't in my life. We completed not one, but TWO shorts for a competition a couple of weeks ago. It was a challenge that we were to remake a movie that spanned no more than ten minutes. The first one was a remake of Office Space and Evil Dead 2. By the way... that's my voice in the background that you hear. Also, this video already has over 300 views!
And the second took home 2nd place! This was by far the most fun I had on a movie set.
Oh yeah, also... I.... kinda have a boyfriend now. Well not kinda, I do. I think I have finally met someone that is as much of a dork as I am. We get a vast majority of each others random references. I find his sense of humor hilarious. He thinks he is a big nerd, but I appreciate it so much! I find that sort of thing very attractive. Perhaps it's because he's not afraid to be himself, that I find so appealing. He's respectful, caring, compassionate, SO funny, and best of all we have such a good time together. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I am incredibly happy. I really look forward to getting to know him better.
One last thing. Last Sunday I got the chance to see Green Day live in concert. I bought the ticket early in the summer not having anyone to go with. And I ended up going alone. I had SO much fun! I have been a huge fan of theirs since middle school and getting to see them live on stage was one of the best moments ever. When I was 13 I had Green Day posters hung up in my room right next to Hanson posters. My brother used to tell me my room didnt make sense. But while my love of Hanson faded away my love for Green Day stayed the same. I will never forget when Bille Joe sang "When I Come Around." I felt like I was 12 again. It brought back a flood of memories. A flood of great memories!
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Letters
Dear Texas Summer,
While I loved you as a child I currently am fed up with your one millionth day of 100+ heat. Can you please tone it down a bit. I would be forever grateful.
Thanks,
Super sweaty
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Dear Blog,
I swear I didn't forget about you! I have had major writers block. I haven't cheated on you, I promise. I just have those microblogs on the side. Twitter and Facebook don't count as cheating... right??
Forever yours,
Worthless Blogger
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Dear Body,
You make me insane! And you make completely no sense at all. I feed you nothing but veggies and fruit for over a week and you gain weight. I feed you pizza, Sonic, and brownies and you feel awesome! What?? Can you please make up your mind. I would be forever in you debt.
Yours truely,
Confused
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Dear Job Seekers,
Here I am! Pick me! Pick me! I have a college degree. I'm smart and a VERY hard worker. I would be a huge asset to your company. Come one... you know you want me.
Broke as a Joke
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Dear John Hughes,
I LOVE your films. You created some masterpieces that I will never forget. Thank you for giving us Ferris Bueller, 16 Candles, The Breakfast Club, and Pretty in Pink. You will never be forgotten.
Always,
Hughes Fan
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Dear Brain,
Why do you always have to disagree with Heart. I command you to get along. Starting right now!
Becky
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Dear Heart,
Why do you always have to disagree with Brain. I command you to get along. Starting right now!
Becky
While I loved you as a child I currently am fed up with your one millionth day of 100+ heat. Can you please tone it down a bit. I would be forever grateful.
Thanks,
Super sweaty
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Dear Blog,
I swear I didn't forget about you! I have had major writers block. I haven't cheated on you, I promise. I just have those microblogs on the side. Twitter and Facebook don't count as cheating... right??
Forever yours,
Worthless Blogger
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Dear Body,
You make me insane! And you make completely no sense at all. I feed you nothing but veggies and fruit for over a week and you gain weight. I feed you pizza, Sonic, and brownies and you feel awesome! What?? Can you please make up your mind. I would be forever in you debt.
Yours truely,
Confused
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Dear Job Seekers,
Here I am! Pick me! Pick me! I have a college degree. I'm smart and a VERY hard worker. I would be a huge asset to your company. Come one... you know you want me.
Broke as a Joke
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Dear John Hughes,
I LOVE your films. You created some masterpieces that I will never forget. Thank you for giving us Ferris Bueller, 16 Candles, The Breakfast Club, and Pretty in Pink. You will never be forgotten.
Always,
Hughes Fan
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Dear Brain,
Why do you always have to disagree with Heart. I command you to get along. Starting right now!
Becky
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Dear Heart,
Why do you always have to disagree with Brain. I command you to get along. Starting right now!
Becky
Monday, July 20, 2009
WTF body?
You are forewarned... in this post I will be complaining... A LOT.
So for the past 16 weeks I have been on the Weight Watchers program. It started out great! The first week I lost over 2 pounds. And for the next month or so it was up and down but mostly down (that's a good thing in this case) But for the past month I have not lost AT ALL. Ever since my birthday I have gained each week. Well one week I stayed exactly the same, but whatev. It's just not making sense. I'm doing the plan like I have always done it and it's not working. So, last week after a 0.5 gain I told myself "I'm going to stick to the plan like I've never stuck to the plan before. I planned my meals out for the whole week. I never ate so many fruits in vegetables in my life!! I went running and walking. I didn't do any other snacking. I wrote EVERYTHING down like I was suppose to. I didn't drink any alcohol or beer. I didn't go out to eat. I cooked healthy meals. I actually felt really good. Saturday morning I went to the WW meeting... I stepped on the scale... and the receptionist gives me a sad look. I said almost laughing, "what I didn't gain, did I?" She was like yeah 0.6 lbs. I nearly lost it! "You have go to be kidding me," I said. "That's impossible." I'm pretty sure she was just as dumbfounded as I was.
The thing is I know for a fact that this program works. A couple of years ago I did it very successfully. I lost 22 pounds. I know it works. Everyone that does it and sticks to it is quite successful. So, I don't know what's wrong with me. It's actually kinda scaring me. What if there is something wrong with my thirod? I dont know what to do about it. On one hand I don't want to keep paying for it if I'm not losing, but on the other I dont want to quit yet. I'm not a quitter and I'm determined to get down to my goal weight. Perhaps I should go see a doctor. Sigh....
Complaining FIN....
So for the past 16 weeks I have been on the Weight Watchers program. It started out great! The first week I lost over 2 pounds. And for the next month or so it was up and down but mostly down (that's a good thing in this case) But for the past month I have not lost AT ALL. Ever since my birthday I have gained each week. Well one week I stayed exactly the same, but whatev. It's just not making sense. I'm doing the plan like I have always done it and it's not working. So, last week after a 0.5 gain I told myself "I'm going to stick to the plan like I've never stuck to the plan before. I planned my meals out for the whole week. I never ate so many fruits in vegetables in my life!! I went running and walking. I didn't do any other snacking. I wrote EVERYTHING down like I was suppose to. I didn't drink any alcohol or beer. I didn't go out to eat. I cooked healthy meals. I actually felt really good. Saturday morning I went to the WW meeting... I stepped on the scale... and the receptionist gives me a sad look. I said almost laughing, "what I didn't gain, did I?" She was like yeah 0.6 lbs. I nearly lost it! "You have go to be kidding me," I said. "That's impossible." I'm pretty sure she was just as dumbfounded as I was.
The thing is I know for a fact that this program works. A couple of years ago I did it very successfully. I lost 22 pounds. I know it works. Everyone that does it and sticks to it is quite successful. So, I don't know what's wrong with me. It's actually kinda scaring me. What if there is something wrong with my thirod? I dont know what to do about it. On one hand I don't want to keep paying for it if I'm not losing, but on the other I dont want to quit yet. I'm not a quitter and I'm determined to get down to my goal weight. Perhaps I should go see a doctor. Sigh....
Complaining FIN....
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Just act like a man and not care
Since Pre- BF Mr. Invisible fell off the face of the Earth, I have decided something. I am just going to stop caring. Yeah you heard me, stop caring... about guys that is. I have wasted so many hours caring about guys who do not care about me. So, I decided I am NOT going to do that anymore! Anyway, since I made that decision I have been really happy. I have focused on other parts of my life that I really DO care about.
My health... I have never eaten so many fruits and vegetables this week in all my life and I have really come to love running.
Making movies... I have been editing The Storm's End for a couple weeks now and really realized how much I love editing. Parker Creek also teamed up with another small production company here in SA to film a 10 minute remake of Office Space (with a twist). I'm super excited to see how that one turns out.
Here I am making sure the actors get their lines right. Also, I don't think you can tell here but it was like a million degrees in this studio. We had to turn off the AC because we could hear it humming threw the mics.
My job... well that's another story. I found out that a girl there who has been there a year or two less then me, does not have a college degree or hardly a high school degree, who leaves at 2:30 everyday, and who doesn't even speak correctly makes $3.50 MORE than me. Yes, your eyes are not mistaken you. $3.50 more than me! I was SO mad. I couldn't even think straight. Not only is that not fair but it's not right in the least.
So, this whole not caring thing is what I have been calling "Acting like a man." If I guy texts me or calls me, I don't answer and forget to call them back. If they ask me out I decline saying I already have plans with the girls. But, unfortunately it's backfiring. Guys freaking like that! Ugh... can't they see that I just don't care anymore???!!!!
My health... I have never eaten so many fruits and vegetables this week in all my life and I have really come to love running.
Making movies... I have been editing The Storm's End for a couple weeks now and really realized how much I love editing. Parker Creek also teamed up with another small production company here in SA to film a 10 minute remake of Office Space (with a twist). I'm super excited to see how that one turns out.
Here I am making sure the actors get their lines right. Also, I don't think you can tell here but it was like a million degrees in this studio. We had to turn off the AC because we could hear it humming threw the mics.My job... well that's another story. I found out that a girl there who has been there a year or two less then me, does not have a college degree or hardly a high school degree, who leaves at 2:30 everyday, and who doesn't even speak correctly makes $3.50 MORE than me. Yes, your eyes are not mistaken you. $3.50 more than me! I was SO mad. I couldn't even think straight. Not only is that not fair but it's not right in the least.
So, this whole not caring thing is what I have been calling "Acting like a man." If I guy texts me or calls me, I don't answer and forget to call them back. If they ask me out I decline saying I already have plans with the girls. But, unfortunately it's backfiring. Guys freaking like that! Ugh... can't they see that I just don't care anymore???!!!!
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