Faith

No not my awesome friend, Faith, but rather the other kind of faith.

Answers.com defines faith as...

1. Confident belief in the truth, value, or trustworthiness of a person, idea, or thing.
2. Belief that does not rest on logical proof or material evidence. See synonyms at belief, trust.
3. Loyalty to a person or thing; allegiance: keeping faith with one's supporters.
4. often Faith Christianity. The theological virtue defined as secure belief in God and a trusting acceptance of God's will.
5. The body of dogma of a religion: the Muslim faith.
6. A set of principles or beliefs.

I have faith in a lot of things in my life. My family's unconditional love, that the Earth is orbiting the Sun, and that Spring will always follow winter. One thing that I have always had trouble having faith in is a higher power, a spiritual being, God. I was raised with my parents being from two totally different religious backgrounds. They tried to do what any 2 loving parents would do in that situation; they taught me and my brother about both religions. We celebrated both religious holidays and worshiped in both religious sanctuaries. They never forced us to believe one religion over the other. They wanted us to make the right decision, whether it be one of those two religions or something completely different, for us. They wanted us to figure out what we believe in and what works for us. Not just something that we were taught and forced to believe.

If I wasn't already in a quarter of a century crisis already now I have one more thing to add to my list. What do I believe? What do I have faith in? Is there a God? If there is, what difference does it make? Am I a Christian? Do I believe in Christ? Is the Bible actually God's words? How come some religions don't believe in Jesus? Was he really the Son of God?

Sometimes I feel like something is really missing in my life. That I am not completely happy. So I think, well maybe if I had a job I liked, a boyfriend/ husband, or a totally smoking hot body I would be completely happy. But would I? The thing is, there is no way I can answer that question. Would I be completely happy if I had God in my life? Some people truely believe the answer is yes. They say, put your life in God's hands and he will take care of you. I have a very good friend that believes this with 100% of his mind, body, and soul. Even if I wanted to do this, how would I go about doing so? Where do I start? Do I need to believe in Him first?

All I ever wanted in my life is to be completely happy. Will that ever happen? I hope so.

It is definitley time

This is how I feel... anyone else with me?

On a lighter note

This is my new favorite song. Actually this whole album is fantastic.

Recession Sucks

To put it plainly I suppose.

GM is dropping Pontiac from production.

Pontiac had a good run. I mean seriously... just look at these works of art.


Here is a 1950 4 door Pontiac Fastback



And one of my all time favorites a Tyrol Blue 1967 GTO Hardtop. This thing has a ton of power behind it.

I hope Obama and his administration can do something about this national crisis before it's too late. I think I might have a conniption fit if my beloved got dropped from production.


Who needs a man when you can love something like this?

XOXOXO

I hope she knows...

but she will always be my bestie!!!

Reason # 5,384,692 why I don't like my job

I work with a bunch of immature idiots.

So lately The Director, who I also work with, and I have become really close friends. We hang out a lot, go eat, bowling, to the movies... stuff like that. But we are just friends. Is that possible for a guy and a girl to be just friends? I think so. But apparently this could not possibly be true according to my immature coworkers. A lot of them are young, like just graduated high school young and they still have that sort of mentality. The mentality where I have no life so I'm going to try and get into other people's life's.

Friday a bunch of us went out to eat and bowling for one my coworkers (K) birthdays. The Director and I drove together like we normal do and we mess and joke around with each other. To others it might seem like we are dating, but I can assure you we are not. We are just friends. Anyway after work today a bunch of us were standing around talking and one of my coworkers (A) starts talking about how K texted her Friday night saying, "Are Becky and "The Director" together?" And A says, "No they are like best friends." (Which we are) and K responds, "Friends with benifits?" And apparently A responds with, "Well did they kiss?" SERIOUSLY WTF? One thing you need to understand is that The Director is very shy about that kind of stuff. While we are really good friends its hard for him to talk about that kind of thing. It was just SO stupid!! Who cares! Why can't we just be friends without people thinking tha we are dating. Why do they even care anyway! Ugghhhh. I thought I graduated high school 7 years ago.

The Soundtrack to my life... the movie

While I have seen this done before I really wanted to do it again. Sleepy Jane did a fantastic one so I thought I could try it too!

How it works:

Each “question” you have to answer with a song
1. Open your iPod/iPhone/iTunes music library
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For the first question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button twice

My Life Soundtrack

Opening Credits: Dead Ringer by Rise Against
Waking Up: In My Room by The Beach Boys (I'm totally serious!!!)
First Day at School: Teenage Wasteland by The Who (again I am totally serious!!)
Falling in Love: Wake Me Up When September Ends by Green Day
Losing Virginity: Go On by Jack Johnson
Fight Song: The Whole World by Outkast
Breaking Up: The Angel and the One- non Musical Silence by Weezer
Matric farewell / Prom: Cold as Ice by Foreigner
Life: You Get What You Give by The New Radicals
Mental Breakdown: I'll Do Anything by Simple Plan
Driving: Hear You Me by Jimmy Eat World
Flashback: Number One Crush by Garbage
Getting Back Together: In the Back Seat by Arcade Fire
Wedding: Our House by Madness
Final Battle: Hang by Matchbox 20
Death Scene: Smells like Teen Spirit by Nirvana

So... he's just not that into me... great!

If you haven't seen He's Just Not That Into You yet, then you REALLY need to. It is SO funny! Ok, why is it SO funny, you ask? Possibly because I can relate to it very well. While the main character is uh lets just say... CRAZY, she was slightly relateable. One of my favorite quotes from the movie was...

GiGi: So, what? Am I suppose to run from every guy that doesn't like me?
Alex: Uh yeah....
GiGi: There's not going to be anybody left!

I couldn't have said it any better myself.

So for some ungodly reason when I got home from seeing this movie I was feeling sorta melancholy and I decided to call The Marine. ( I hadn't heard from him in over 3 weeks) I had all but given up on him.

Me: Hey! What's up?
The Marine (TM): Oh hey you! (I'm sure he forgot my name, that's why he said you) What's going on?
Me: Not much. Just got home from seeing a movie.
TM: Oh really? What movie?
Me: He's Just Not That Into You
TM: (laughs) Is that why you called me?
(Did he seriously just ask me that!!!)
Me: No, of course not.
Then he goes on to give me some big sob story about how he has been working really hard and putting all his money into his truck and he didn't even have enough money to pay his phone bill. Blah Blah Blah.
TM: Well maybe we can hang out sometime.
Me: You want to hang out with me? It's ok if you don't. I'm a big girl. I'll understand.
TM: Oh no no no. I do.

Long story short... has he called me yet to "hang out?" That would be a big negative.