Since everyone else is doing it....

Conversations with D...

While driving up to Walgreens...

D: What is that on the Walgreens sign?

Me: I think it's a motor and pestle.

D: What's that?

Me: You know... what they used to use in the old days to smash up the herbs to make medicine.

D: *Thinks for a second* How come witches brews always have eye of newt in them? There're probably a lot of one eyed newts walking around because of that.

Lack of blogging recipe

Dear Lordy it has been a long time since I've written.

Here is the perfect recipe for taking forever to write my blog

1 heaping TBSP of laziness

1/4 cup of writers block

2 oz busy with the new job

1 pint boyfriend

1 gallon "when everything is going well and you have nothing to complain about it's hard to write a blog"

Pour all together into one bowl; stir well. Bake at 400 degrees for a little less than a month and you have the perfect recipe for the absence of my blog.

But seriously folks... my life lately has been fantastic.

The job is going great! Right now, at least, it is low stress, the hours are awesome, it's definitely something I went to school for, my bosses are great and I feel like I am really contributing to the growth of the company. *Plus* I have my own office and they even bought me a Macbook Pro for me to use!

And what oh what can I say about my D. I'm in love. Plainly and simply put. I feel like I've known him for a long time. He makes me laugh, he makes me smile, blush, feel whole. I feel more confident in myself just having him in my life. Being loved is a wonderful feeling. And loving another the same way feels equally if not better.

One thing I have been thinking about lately though is I really don't want to loose myself as D and I become closer. I have to remember what is important to me, what I like to do for myself, what are the things that make me happy.

So, one thing I thought of was looking for someone to give me voice lessons. I always tell people that I came out of the womb singing. I LOVE to sing! But the problem is, is that I don't have a God given talent. I've always needed direction and LOTS of practice. I've taken voice lessons before and got better. So, I've decided I want to do it again. I wonder how much people charge for that kind of thing?

Hopefully it won't be almost another month until my next blog.

Transitions and Changes

I've been neglecting my best friend. I'm just going to come right out and say it. And I really feel bad. I feel bad, because I know exactly how it feels. Your best friend gets a boyfriend and then suddenly she falls off the face of the Earth. I never wanted to become that girl, but yet, somehow I have. I've become the girl that I used to complain about when I was single. I've become the girl that can never be without him. And I SO do not want to be that girl. Admitting you have a problem is the first step right? I want D to be an extra bonus, wonderful addition to my life, not be my life. I LOVE spending time with D but I miss my girls. They have been my support for a long time and I wouldn't be where I am today without them. Especially my bestie. I love her! We can scream at each other on the phone and still work things out in the end. That's just the way we are.

*On a side note, I explained to D that I had been neglecting bestie (not his fault at all, its all me) and I am going to start making more time for her... and he completely understood. As well he should have, but I'm still just amazed of how good of a person he is. Just another reason why I love him so much.*

Lets see... hmmm... what else... oh yeah... one little thing...

I GOT A JOB!!!!!

You are looking at the new Social Network Marketing Specialist for a local apartment relocation service here in SA. I will be doing their social media as well as their public relations. I am SO excited about this job. It's a brand new, exciting up-in-coming field. Here is a video that shows some stats about how social media is a new revolution not just a fad.



I will be promoting the business through different social media channels and outlets. I finally get the pay I deserve, BENEFITS, and out of all get the satisfaction that I got my degree for a reason. All the time and money in school really did pay off.

Lots of things changing in my life... but I believe it's for the better.

*BTW... not sure why the last part is in huge font. I tried to change it but I couldn't get it back to normal. Oh well... it is BIG news :-)

Talkin Smack

So lately one of my favorite bloggers, Chelsea Talks Smack, seems to have been writing just for me. These last couple of posts have been EXCELLENTLY written.

Here is one about connecting with people in the "real" life not just the 3D life.

And here is another about being afraid to fall in love.

Finally here is another about doing what you love to do even if it doesn't make any sense to anyone else but yourself.

If you don't already read her blog, then you NEED to subscribe ASAP! This girl is one cool chick who oddly enough seems to speak directly to me. Thanks Chelsea for making me feel not quite so alone.

Mature Relationship

Well hello blogosphere! I know one of the unspoken rules of writing a blog is that you aren't suppose to apologize for not writing for a while, but I honestly do apologize. It's not like I haven't sat down and tried to write something several times... I have.

And I'm not going to lie, I have been spending a lot time with the new bf... D... but that's not the whole reason why I haven't written in a while. I just wanted to write something that made some kind of sense.

As I look back over my list of criteria D matches up almost perfectly. Although there are some things that don't match I have found that it doesnt really matter. So what if his favorite band isn't The Beatles, I like teaching him all that I know about them, its fun! He's kind, generous, compasionate, caring, and loving. He makes me laugh... laugh so hard that my sides hurt!

But sometimes I think, "Am I capable of having a mature relationship?" I hope that I am. I have had a lot of past experiences that I have learned from, I have read The Rules and "The Bitch Book" AKA "The Bible" AKA "Why Men Love Bitches", I have talked enlessly about men with my girlfriends, and I have seen every episode of Sex in the City ever made. But is this enough? Is anyone ever ready for a mature relationship?

And what consists of a mature relationship anyway? Right now I'm just going to take it day by day. Live in the moment. I'm going to enjoy his compaionship. I'm going to enjoy the side- splitting laughter, the long kisses goodnight, holding his hand, going out to dinner, watching movies together, taking his dog to park, and getting to know his family better. It's been a long time since I have been in a relationship. But it was definitely worth the wait. :-)

The curse has lifted!

Writers block has cursed my fingers once again. Or perhaps I have been so wrapped up in my changing thoughts and feelings that it has been nearly impossible for me to write something half way coherent. I guess being in limbo can do that to you sometimes.

For a while I have been wanting to get the heck out of dodge. For a lot of reasons, but most importantly because I needed to save money and start paying back my debts. The job search has been frugal and not at all successful. I am still uncertain as to exactly why I haven't been able to find something. I assume it's the economy, but it also might be me. Maybe, although I thought I was, perhaps I really wasn't trying as hard as I should have. College grads have it especially hard finding a job. They have little to no experience because they have spent so much time completing their degree. But yet they have spent so much money completing their degree they need to find a job that can be beneficial financially to them. It's almost a Catch- 22. As for me, I feel like I have a ton of experience in a lot of random stuff. My degree was in communications so I could really do anything. It's just sometimes hard to express in one lousy cover letter or resume. (Although, I think my resume is awesome! But apparently that is just me that thinks that.) So, my new goal is to bug the sh*t out of all the businesses that I apply to. You know about the proverbial squeaky wheel... well that's going to be me! I hate my current job more than EVER right now so that's just a little extra fuel for the fire. I really do think that I would be an excellent addition to any company.

Besides the foreboding nightmare that is my job search I am very happy to say that I LOVE my work that I have been doing for Parker Creek. I would be super sad and depressed if these guys weren't in my life. We completed not one, but TWO shorts for a competition a couple of weeks ago. It was a challenge that we were to remake a movie that spanned no more than ten minutes. The first one was a remake of Office Space and Evil Dead 2. By the way... that's my voice in the background that you hear. Also, this video already has over 300 views!



And the second took home 2nd place! This was by far the most fun I had on a movie set.

Night Of The Living Socks!

Oh yeah, also... I.... kinda have a boyfriend now. Well not kinda, I do. I think I have finally met someone that is as much of a dork as I am. We get a vast majority of each others random references. I find his sense of humor hilarious. He thinks he is a big nerd, but I appreciate it so much! I find that sort of thing very attractive. Perhaps it's because he's not afraid to be himself, that I find so appealing. He's respectful, caring, compassionate, SO funny, and best of all we have such a good time together. I haven't felt this way in a long time and I am incredibly happy. I really look forward to getting to know him better.

One last thing. Last Sunday I got the chance to see Green Day live in concert. I bought the ticket early in the summer not having anyone to go with. And I ended up going alone. I had SO much fun! I have been a huge fan of theirs since middle school and getting to see them live on stage was one of the best moments ever. When I was 13 I had Green Day posters hung up in my room right next to Hanson posters. My brother used to tell me my room didnt make sense. But while my love of Hanson faded away my love for Green Day stayed the same. I will never forget when Bille Joe sang "When I Come Around." I felt like I was 12 again. It brought back a flood of memories. A flood of great memories!

Letters

Dear Texas Summer,

While I loved you as a child I currently am fed up with your one millionth day of 100+ heat. Can you please tone it down a bit. I would be forever grateful.

Thanks,
Super sweaty

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Dear Blog,

I swear I didn't forget about you! I have had major writers block. I haven't cheated on you, I promise. I just have those microblogs on the side. Twitter and Facebook don't count as cheating... right??

Forever yours,
Worthless Blogger

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Dear Body,

You make me insane! And you make completely no sense at all. I feed you nothing but veggies and fruit for over a week and you gain weight. I feed you pizza, Sonic, and brownies and you feel awesome! What?? Can you please make up your mind. I would be forever in you debt.

Yours truely,
Confused

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Dear Job Seekers,

Here I am! Pick me! Pick me! I have a college degree. I'm smart and a VERY hard worker. I would be a huge asset to your company. Come one... you know you want me.

Broke as a Joke

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Dear John Hughes,

I LOVE your films. You created some masterpieces that I will never forget. Thank you for giving us Ferris Bueller, 16 Candles, The Breakfast Club, and Pretty in Pink. You will never be forgotten.

Always,
Hughes Fan

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Dear Brain,

Why do you always have to disagree with Heart. I command you to get along. Starting right now!

Becky

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Dear Heart,

Why do you always have to disagree with Brain. I command you to get along. Starting right now!

Becky